Sorry Rant Time

Okay i was really going to try not to do this sort of thing on this blog but then i figured, whats the point in having a blog that non of your friends know about if you cant use it.

I'm sure i have mention my ex boyfriend in a couple of posts and I'm fine (I'm not really but I'm starting to get over it) with the fact he just ended our relationship for no reason, when in the beginning it was him that followed me around like a lost puppy.

Even when i saw on his twitter he is constantly moaning that girls always go for the jerk and never nice guys like him, (which always makes me laugh because looking back on our relationship he was a bit of a jerk, ignoring me in front of his friends and then being very loving when no one could see) well i just got over it because he wasn't interested in me anymore, clearly.

Then came the short relationships with a few girls that dont exactly have the best reputations in the school (lets just say they don't wait for love) which did bug me because why would a guy give up a proper relationship for that sort of thing, and then moan about the fact girls always go for the guys that use them (hypocrite?)

Well i could have lived with all of that if i didn't just go on twitter and see what I'm pretty sure is him flirting with one of my best friends. Well she doesn't seem very interested, but i think i would find that way to awkward. Uhhh i feel like such a bad person for getting jealous at that.

Also...

Adding to my last thought, today it occurred to me how awkward it is for the boyfriend too, how he has to watch his parents wave at his ex girlfriend and say how much they used to like her knowing that either you broke her heart, or she broke yours. So sorry i didn't think of that sooner boys, promise I'm not sexist or something.

Why not to meet the parents

I'm not saying that you should never meet your boyfriends parents, in fact i think it can be a brilliant bonding experience, not necessarily the other way round as girls parents can be very protective but a boyfriends parents always seem to be welcoming to a girlfriend. The problem is when you break up.

I think if you are under twenty years old, its not likely that you will marry the guy and a break up will likely happen. When i first got together with my ex boyfriend i used to go to his house nearly all the time, and of course because of this i would see his parents a lot. They are really nice, i liked them straight away. Then his birthday came around and his dad asked me if i wanted to go out to dinner with them, and before that he would have a driving experience. I was really excited to spend time with them as part of the family, and whilst he was driving i spent two hours getting to know his parent. We talked about so much, and they even joked about getting him to but me an expensive birthday present. Afterwards we went out to dinner and the night ended very sweetly with him falling asleep on my shoulder.

Fast forward a month and he had broken up with me. The breakup was hard but I'm finally starting to get over him, the thing is his sister is a good friend of mine, so i still see his parents a lot, and every time they smile at me, and wave through the window of their car when they see me walking. Its really hard to respect the fact everything is over and then smile at his parents and listen to their stories.

My Heart

Here is a little piece of writing about my heart.

A few years ago we were so young, so happy,

Then I ended it all, something had changed,

A year later, just a few months ago,

I realised what, it was my heart.


Maybe I wasn’t ready, for what I felt,

Maybe I didn’t realise what I had,

But I let you go,

And I wanted you back.


So I watched for a while, tried to understand,

You were different to how I remembered,

But in some ways the same,

My heart had changed back.


Then the day came you told me you felt the same,

Our reunion was amazing, like no time had passed,

Only my feelings were stronger,

But yours had faded.


The whole time I could see that change in you,

You cared so much less,

Yet I still felt for you,

I was too scared to lose you.


Then the day came when you ended it all,

I understood your pain those two years ago,

My blood ran cold, my emotions gone,

I missed you already.


I sat around and watched you move on,

The pain stabbed my heart,

I couldn’t move on,

Maybe I could if I knew why.


Now I do my best for us to stay friends,

It’s hard to be around you,

But I can’t risk losing you,

Not completely.


Then my heart warms again from a very strange source,

Someone I wouldn’t have looked at twice before,

A flirt here and there,

And my heart starts to mend, again.


I know what I had before wasn’t love,

And neither is what I have now,

But it could be one day,

When I finally understand my heart.

Valentine's Day

Today is the day to spend with the one you love, or at least the one you like. I’m sure not everyone has heard the story of Valentine, and I’m pretty sure you don’t want to but one thing I will say is it is the love story that was so powerful, people still honour it today.

So use today wisely, if there is someone you like, today is the day that you should tell them, it’s not too late. If you a guy, this is the day when most single girls wish they had a guy who was interested, and if you’re a girl, I’m pretty sure guys would want a date too!

So take a risk, it doesn’t have to be expensive, just give them a card to show them you care, maybe you might get a date!

Compromise

Sometimes in life we have to do things we don’t want to, but one thing we have to remember is not everything can benefit us all of the time. Sometimes when things go wrong and we have an argument with our friends we have to think that yes we are annoyed, and yes they have done something that has hurt us, but eventually we are going to have to forgive them, and if we can’t forgive them we are going to have to move on and find new friends. You might not want to lose your friend and you may feel like it’s hard to move on, but sometimes you have to accept when it’s not a proper friendship.

It’s the same when in a relationship. Sometimes when things go wrong and you have an argument you have to accept that you love them and that you are going to have to get past it, or you have to realise that things aren’t working out and you are going to have to end things, even if you are scared to, and if someone does the same thing to you, you have to accept that although things aren’t going your way, there isn’t anything you can do because you can’t force them to stay with you if they are unhappy. I’m not saying don’t fight for the one you love or try to work things out, but sometimes you have to accept that the person who means the most to you doesn’t feel the same, and it’s important to find someone who does

Finally there is family. When you have an argument with a family member you both have to respect each other and find a common ground, because unlike the other two, a friend or a life partner, you can’t choose your family. They are the people who are there for you when things go wrong with a friend or a partner, when you fall out with a friend, your family is there for you, when you break up with your first boyfriend, your parents are there for you, even when your forty years old and you break up with our husband, it’s your family who are there for you.

Remember you can’t always get your own way, and sometimes that’s the time when you show people you care about their feelings, when you compromise for them, and of course when things go wrong, your family is always there!